Day 3

It's amazing to hear the voice of God when you sit quietly and listen. Tonight while I was participating in the prayer gathering at my church, my pastors lead us through a time of quiet individual prayer and reflection; leading us to search our hearts and confess our sins to God, to ask God to use us where we are in our lives, and to ask him to help us in an area where we are struggling.

The biggest area where I am struggling is in my daily walk with God. I forget to stop and have my quiet time. Technology has a way of stealing quiet moments of my day: Facebook, Pinterest, my e-mail, or even watching a movie or just having the TV on for background noise. I am really hoping over the next month, I can unplug from technology and plug back into scriptures. My plan for this is to set a timer and check my e-mail and Facebook after breakfast, when Phillip takes a nap and then again before I go to bed. I need to not have my phone with me while the boys are doing schoolwork.  Technology also has a way of stealing the moments that I can spend with my boys. I need to take advantage of the time I have with them at home. 

God also spoke to my heart that I am doing my best when it comes to being a wife and mother. There are times when I feel like I am failing at both. Several times a week it looks like a tornado has hit the inside of my house: the laundry is a mile high or fills the hallway floor to where you cant help but step on it. The dishes are piled in the sink, on the counter or left in other rooms of the house. Some evenings I even forget to have dinner for Steven when he gets home.  Homeschooling is like a roller coaster, we have our good days and bad no so good days. There are times when I lose my cool and yell at my kids for something that is very 

trivial.